rui jacob astrix
did somebody say awkward? cause yeah, i think i heard awkward.

rui jacob astrix was no longer related to ash and julia astrix.

ah, he could picture the tabloid covers already.

the train doors opened and he hauled his bags out into the snow, making sure to flip off jess as he exited. bitch. fucking asshole. this was all her fucking fault. last year he'd been perfectly fine, in a nice, albeit somewhat mean, household, but now, he was a fucking disowned child, all because she had to go blab about him being bisexual. bloody brilliant. at least he was of age now and wouldn't have to crash on effy's couch over the summer or go to a bloody orphanage. he knew how sad sarah was that he was no longer part of the family, after she had heard the big row that rui had had with his parents - he was quite proud of himself for not backing down the entire time - but that was it. he wasn't going back to his parents house, and that ended that. he'd taken all of his stuff with him on the train, so they wouldn't have the chance to burn it, and then had made sure to send jess and zach's stuff flying up and down the hogwarts express, which was why jess had been in his range of sight when he left the train, because she had been about to hit him.

he pulled out his wand and waved it, not feeling in the mood to carry half his room with him to the dorm. god, he needed to get drunk. get drunk and forget the asshole family he had been a part of. he and effy would go out to a club tonight, and from there, he'd let fate play out its course, a course that would hopefully involve him getting knocked out and forgetting everything about his parents. he pulled his coat around his thin frame more tightly and left the station, before collapsing on a snowy bench outside the station, his bags falling to the ground in front of him. he swore as his butt met frozen water, but he really couldn't be brought to care about anything right now. he had been kicked out of home. well, more like half-kicked out, half-left. he had been anticipating it for a while now, so it wasn't like it was anything new to him.

and that was when the tears started. and once they started with him, it was hard to get them to stop. shit, this wasn't good. he pulled out his wand and cast a spell so that nobody would be able to see him, especially the other students exiting from the train, as he cried and sobbed and basically created his own little lake in front of hogsmeade station. he was alone now. not alone completely, of course, but without a family. he pressed his hand to his nose, feeling the spell falter and then end, but through his tear-filled vision he could see nobody else leaving the station, meaning he could cry without anybody seeing him now.

his life was so freaking great right now, really.

rui jacob astrix
did somebody say awkward? cause yeah, i think i heard awkward.

rui felt, suddenly, as if he were being crushed by a giant bear. oh. nope, not a bear, just effy. the vampire. he honestly couldn't believe that his best friend was a real, live vampire. that was just a bit too twilight for him. not to mention that she was a hell of a lot like the vampires in twilight, save for the few things that effy said were huge things. but, that wasn't the point. rui blushed deeply, wiping his face as effy released him. his eyes were pretty much as red as they had ever gotten before in his life, because quite honestly - and possibly surprising - rui had never cried this much, not even after breaking up with jake and being threatened with removal from hogwarts by his parents. he shuddered involuntarily at the memory - and at the wind; he really needed to get a bit more meat on his bones, because right now there was very little of him - and that small action caused the tears to start flowing again and him to be using effy for support. "i-i'm s-s-sorry," he sobbed, apologizing for the amount of tears and snot and other such nonsense that he was getting on her and the fact that, well, he was having a mental breakdown in front of his best friend. "p-please...j-just g-gimme a-a s-sec," he stammered, gasping for breath between the sobs.

he pulled his wand out and silently cast a spell. a box of tissues appeared at his side and he yanked about twelve out to blow his nose with and wipe away his tears. he continued sobbing, still, but it seemed his tears were beginning to dry up. he continued to wipe his face free of snot and tears as effy stood there, wanting to be able to actually speak when he explained what had happened to him. dammit, why did he have to be such a loser? why did he have to bloody cry when something that he had saw coming months ago - wanted it to come, wanted it to be the first to do it, actually - finally happened? he was the biggest loser the world had ever seen. no wonder he was so awkward. no wonder he had been kicked out of home. the astrixes didn't want a loser to be part of their family; that wasn't what the astrixes were known for.

he heard his phone ringing, but he ignored it; it would just be sarah asking what was up with him and where he was. sarah he still loved. but he couldn't talk to her right now. not when he was like this. he could barely talk to effy. he wanted, partly, to tell effy to go away so he could cry alone, but that would be shoving away one of the only friends he had, and to be honest, he needed his friends these days. after all, where was he supposed to sleep when summer came? although when summer did come, he would be his own adult, so technically he could find his own place...but he really needed somebody he could go to to take shelter with if he couldn't. and his parents weren't there anymore. in a few years, sarah would be, yes, but rui could be dead in a few years if he didn't find a place to live by then...and effy was really his only option at that. even if she did live with her adopted parents. and if effy didn't want him...well, he'd just have to get by somehow, right? he sniffed again, then hicupped about twelve times, finally sure that the sobs and tears were gone. for the moment, at least.

"i-i'm sorry," he said, his voice hoarse from the crying. "i just...i just..." and here came the tears again. he felt one fall from his eyelash down to his cheek, and he didn't bother to wipe it away. he'd probably be using up his entire supply of tears within the next few days, so there was no point wasting time resisting them. "i...i finally got kicked out...they were complaining about everything, and i finally just told them to f-fuck off and then...that was it...they threw me out, everything. shoved my crap out the window. i had to apparate to their house in australia for a few days until school started again...i...i don't know what i'm going to do, effy...i...i..." he began sobbing again, putting his head in his hands. why was the question he was repeating in his head yet again as he sobbed, but he couldn't find the answer. he just wanted to stop crying, and he had no idea how. of course, this was effy he was talking with..."i...i need to get drunk, effy," he said quietly, before the tears started again.